"Control The Blue" Lyrics

How often I run
From everything inside of me
But there is no doubt
I'm not yet free from what's haunting me

I'm hiding here
I'm fighting my thoughts for control here
An oh so familiar fugue
I'm afraid I'm returning to
Masochistic depths of the blue

I know they're coming for me
They want to rob my youth

I can't escape, can't evade them
They're in my head
I'm being taken so deep below
So deep below in the undertow

Control the blue
Cuz I'm sick of drowning here
And the waves keep crashing down on me
I'm afraid of what I'll do in this solitude
Just control the blue

And they're ringing in my brain
And I can here them so loud and clear
That silence is the thing that I most fear
They're screaming the harshest things
They tell me what I should do
And I keep giving way to all they say
Transforming hate into scathing truth

I know they'll soon control me
They want to end my youth

Internal thunder pulling me under
I can't stop the rain
I'd give anything to ease the pain
To make the torment go away

Control the blue
Cuz I'm sick of drowning here
And the waves keep crashing down on me
I'm afraid of what I'll do in this solitude
Just control the blue

The storm is coming now
I can feel the evidence
The fury's all around
Combating demons in my head
My psychosis has been fed
(The room is spinning round)

Can't flee don't you see
Cuz I'm my own worst enemy
Can't take or break away
From what's killing me
My near future's hard to see
Cuz no one hates me more than me
My downward spiral now owns me

Control the blue
Cuz I'm sick of drowning here
And the waves keep crashing down on me
I'm afraid of what I'll do in this solitude
Just control the blue

I know they're coming for me
I'll try to hold my youth