"Complete Consumption Of Us Both" Lyrics

There was an idea to describe in all detail but
maybe the huge pain juggernaut overwhelmed me
There is no room for a single word unrelated lest to
betray the situation which is
that of absolute seriously complete whole consumption of us both
I'm sure us both
I guess, as per the situation I can only,
if ever, in fairness speak for myself again
I gave up my eligibility to ever speak on your behalf
until someday that, I don't know if it will ever happen,
(oh my god)
Sadness worse than the loss of a loved one's life
versus the impending loss of love
Is it quantifiable?
Is one worse?
Can I really remember?
I think I try to block out and forget experiences so I forget