"Lost At Sea" Lyrics

I tagged along and shouted orders from the back
I've read the books and led the wolves on through the pack
I've been through many times enough to know the danger zones
Each day was different, I didn't talk, I couldn't think
I rode it out until the death, the day was out of sync
Thought I was wiser and I didn't see the dangers unfold

I felt the wind lift and push on my back
I counted every minute but the panic attacked
I turned around to see but my friends they had gone
And left me for dead

I feel shipwrecked and lost at sea
I boarded the boat with my enemy
I played into the danger zone
I'm taking the boat back the long way home

I looked up and with one hand (?) I turned on (?)
Gone all the days I turned and said goodbye to my career
Out in the bitter cold the dirt still hangs my name

(?) the cynic in me (?)
Back in the bittersweet (?) and see so much clearer now
Lying and licking my wounds

I felt the wind lift and push on my back
I counted every minute but the panic attacked
I turned around to see but my friends they had gone
And left me for dead

I feel shipwrecked and lost at sea
I boarded the boat with my enemy
I played into the danger zone
I'm taking the boat back the long way home
[x2]

(?) the cynic in me (?) [x4]