"Turn Back" Lyrics

[Hook: Maverick Sabre (x2)]
I've been living this daily
With no peace, no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could draw back the hands of time.

[Verse 1]
Born me 1985
10 months later my little bro arrived
Raised in a place where it's do to survive
My mommy shopped food to put honey in our hive
I can see the hunger in her eyes
I can see that something wasn't right
She taught me how to rapish up my first ticket
She told me watch my back and be smart with it
And I wish that I could take you there
To a place that my brain takes me everyday
I can smile but it still won't take the pain away
I could try but remain in this lonely place
From a child I've been raised in a soldier way
Mommy didn't ramp she called us the krays
No jokes she showed us the ways

[Hook: Maverick Sabre (x2)]
I've been living this daily
With no peace, no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could draw back the hands of time.

[Verse 2]
Mommy couldn't cope so she turned to drugs
But Auntie Tina gave us hope, she was there for us
I was raised on the roads where it's rare to trust
And my heart's been broke, now I'm scared to love
And I might seem closed until I open up
Feel the weight of the struggle I've been holding up
Been betrayed by a cuddle and a heartless hug
I drink pain from a bottle till my heart feels numb
Cause I came from the bottom of this bottle of rum
Ain't changed from a youngun', I've been stuck in the slums
Grey days up in London, ain't no summer for us
They're trying to take aid, they want my brother in cuffs
And I just came home this ain't nothing to ask
Like the court don't know how a sufferer does
This is poor home grown but mom's love was enough
So I want to give her more than she's giving to us.

[Hook: Maverick Sabre (x2)]
I've been living this daily
With no peace, no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could draw back the hands of time.

[Bridge: Maverick Sabre]
I don't want to feel this
I don't want to see this
I don't want to hurt no more
I don't want to be this
I don't want to feed this
I don't need to fight this war
Cause I'm trying to be somebody
There's nothing I fear that can cloud it
I'm trying to be somebody
Need to get on up
Need to get on up now

[Hook: Maverick Sabre (x2)]
I've been living this daily
With no peace, no day dreams to save me
Get high cause I want to survive
Wish I could draw back the hands of time.