"Filthy Habits" Lyrics

Why won't everyone just forget about it?
I left a trail of blood and a mile of violence
and I don't deserve anything I've provided
I'm cold, leave me alone

I tip toe corners these days
always hiding
my mind has swallowed whole
every last distraction
and with that I'm left with are a million questions
like "have you grown cold?"
"Are you fucking miserable?"

I just can't listen to sad songs anymore
I get fucking bored

Jealous of friendships that I can't abide by
Just like these sinking ships!
Watch the water swallow all of us whole
This time I swear it's over
jump in with your lungs wide open
Haven't you heard cynics never recover?

There are words that I can't even breathe
And those are the ones I've been dying to scream
Still jealous of friendships I can't abide by
We'll watch these sinking ships!
and the water swallow all of us whole
This time I swear it's over
jump in with your lungs wide open
Cynics never fucking recover

Spit out the stories you've been told
cause now you're so much older
it's clear you've forgotten all about this
I don't think I'll ever recover