"Blue Mist in My Head" Songtext

I just wanna be real
Sadness holds me hostage when you're near
Like a depression machine
A picture of good health when I go deep
It's only when o get down
People get pretending I'm a frown
Coping with a disease
But the bright light can't protect me from a

10mile stare
When I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me I guess

I keep on the inside
Smiling through my broken teeth again
But when I cross the line
I lose myself u leash pure bitter hell
It's only when I get down
People keep pretending I'm a grown
Coping with a disease
But the bright light can't protect me from a

10mile stare l
When I'm not there
Blue mist in my head
Anxiety was made for me I guess
No memory for forgetting
No commitment in your presence
No solution to the struggle
No forgiveness for your penance