"thinkingoutloud//" Lyrics

I used to try and outrun the darkness even though I was running into it
I would run as fast as I fucking could to get rid of the darkness behind me
But I'd have to just keep running into it
It was like the worst fucking...
It was like the greatest depiction of the worst anxiety attack ever
And like you're running from something that you're stuck in

I don't care what anyone thinks
Fuck this town and whoever hates me
I'll give 'em a reason
Oh, I was just thinking out loud
Are you really afraid?
Don't know my own strengths just yet
Scarecrow

When you told me not to sleep with my phone by my head
'Cause that gives you cancer
And I learned you're the one with the answers
Well, it's shown prominent
The most feasible way to love is to not at all
I'm jumping off

Doesn't it hurt?

We'll get along 'cause you got no innocence
You're not free, you're chained to Ritalin
We'll make love, but it won't be intimate
I'm so sorry, but my heart's not into this

I turn gray and they just paint over it
I can't tell there was ever a privilege
I can't tell there was ever a privilege

Doesn't it hurt?