"Anti-Hero" Lyrics

I have this thing where I get older but just never wiser
Midnights become my afternoons
When my depression works the graveyard shift
All of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room

I should not be left to my own devices
They come with prices and vices
I end up in crisis
I've realized all this time
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day I'll watch as you're leaving
Cuz you got tired of my scheming
For the last time

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At tea time, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting, always rooting for the anti-hero

Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy baby
And I'm a monster on the hill
Too big to hang out, slowly lurching towards your favorite city
Pierced through the heart, but never killed

Did you hear my covert narcissism lightly disguised as altruism
Like some kind of congressman
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day I'll watch as you're leaving
And life will lose all of its meaning
For the last time

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At tea time, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting, always rooting for the anti-hero

I have this dream my daughter-in-law kills me for the money
She thinks I left them in the will
The family gathers around and reads it and someone screams out
"She's laughing up at us from hell!"

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
It's me, hi, everybody agrees
Everybody agrees...

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me (I'm the problem, it's me)
At tea time, everybody agrees
Everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting, always rooting for the anti-hero