"Tear" Lyrics

I remember dreaming like a king but misery ended up fucked up
Pain turned into fame and had me looking like I locked up
Cherishing every moment, time running so far away (So far away)
Instead of looking for hope I take hate and call it a day
I feel it in the air, tension crowding up my atmosphere
I take it as it is, it ain't no happy feelings passing here
It's hard to say who love me, money got the picture faded
You can't explain going through shit when people think you made it
Everybody got opinions and don't know what's going on
I tell em leave me in that zone and end with fuck alone
I'm feeling trapped inside my home, the pressure got me nervous
Praying like a deacon at a church, still ain't been to service
I feel like this attention left my baby momma with a grudge
I give my kids the world, so why the fuck I'm stuck in front this judge?
I try patience but it's hard to use it round this motherfucker
Somebody help me 'fore I lose it round this motherfucker

I'm less than a minute away
Going upside this wall with either my head or hand
I help myself to live for what I love, I'm watching it sink in sand
I feel it down so much the anger got me like I'm trippin'
It's hard to be a stand-up nigga when ya life is slippin'
Sometimes I wish to bring my partners back up out the ground
Instead of me crying out through this pain and letting it out the sound
I'm on my own 'cause when I look for help, it's not around
They say they on their way but end up lost like they was out of town
My home is faking any breath of air that snuck up out it
I need to vent before I take these walls the fuck up out it (I'm going crazy)
I'll burn this bitch up for I let it hurt me any longer
Shit got me rough as hell, I doubt it'll make me any stronger
The only peace of mind I get is looking at my ceilings
Sometimes it ain't nothing, other days it's a wonderful feeling
I close my eyes and end up headed where they say it's danger
I rather be there 'cause here is nothing but familiar strangers